Ever had an ah-ha moment and knew this was the one which would “click” and making losing all that unhealthy weight easy-breezy?  Me too; hundreds and maybe thousands of them.  I know I finally reached the point where I gave up believing in myself that anything would stick. In fact, that is the place I have been for a while.  Thinking it almost seemed easier to just forget ever getting healthy and let the “chips” (no pun intended) fall where they may.  Almost there, but not quite.  I have a great husband, wonderful friends, businesses I love, places I want to see, and things I want to do.  The time has finally arrived to decide if staying alive is more important than giving up.

When you make this choice so many times and then let yourself down, you stop trusting in making yet one more  decision or commitment.  We become so afraid of letting ourselves down again that we are afraid to begin.

I came home last night from an intensive two day business workshop which was completely focused on creating tools and strategies to grow our business.  That is certainly why I went - to learn how to create more profit out of the 16 hours per day I regularly work.  Everyone there seemed to have a clear picture of where their business was going and the next step they needed to take.  I sat there feeling frustrated and confused and not knowing how to incorporate what I was learning into my businesses and how to focus in on the next step for me.  I was feeling like I did not fit in and wondering what was wrong with me.

Then I had the ah-ha, well maybe more of a duh than an ah-ha.  I realized I was focusing on the wrong area of my life completely.  Being successful in business has always come easy to me and I create successful businesses without a problem.  So it was comfortable and easy to focus all my attention in that area.

In fact, the only area in my life where I have felt like a complete failure is in losing weight and KEEPING it off.  I had lost all confidence in ever being successful in releasing the weight and not gaining it back, because this was an area in which I have never succeeded long term.  Being successful feels good - failing feels bad.  And it was much easier for me to concentrate on the areas in my life I felt good.

But it has long since past the point where my weight is about looking hot or wearing great outfits.  At this point, it is about making a choice to improve the quality of my life and to keep on living period.

I made the decision at this “business workshop” to put business in second place in life and make my health number one.  It even scared me to say it, because even when I said it, I was not sure I would even last the first day.  We walked out of the event last night with our next three most important steps to take in our lives and by when we would achieve them.  Here are mine:

I would get up this morning and before going to the computer and starting work I would do the following three things:

1.  Weigh and record my weight
2.  Exercise
3.  Eat a healthy breakfast.

Sounds pretty simple doesn’t it?  It was not and I did it anyway.  Being a perfectionist, it is easy to get sidetracked.  I answered the phone right before I was getting on the treadmill, thinking it was my husband and instead it was a business call.  The call lasted about 30 minutes or more and I kept thinking; I am supposed to be doing my three things before I do business and now I have already blown it.  Could not even get through the first day.  And then I said STOP IT!!!  Life is in session and you have to do the best you can do.  You are done with that call and now go do what you said you would do.  And I did and it felt good to make that choice.

Part of my plan is to record everything I eat and it took me awhile to find the program I use.  Part of my brain was saying this is taking too much time, you’ll remember just go check your email and then record it later.  I am so thankful I did not listen to that part of my brain.

As I was writing this, I had to keep fighting the urge to say “to be continued” and go work for a while.  And I didn’t.  So it is 9:53 on the first day of this plan and I have kept my commitment to myself.  Realizing if I were to drop dead of a heart attack, it would not matter how successful or unsuccessful my businesses are is an interesting concept.

I just am glad that as of this moment, I have followed my plan and made my health important to me today.

Going forward on the journey,

Judi